I can SEE sound sense in the zigzag ways my life has come to this point! HE was right there, even when I was obscured, blinded, and, acting foolishly, trying to live in the world, and, in HIM! HE KNEW where HE was taking me, and, it was just a matter of time before I got there! And, upon my awakening, I have been humbled, and, deeply grateful for HIS having put up with me, as long as HE has, but, even this, was already established...
In the opening of my inner-sights, and, senses, I repented, and, was downright fearful of HIM, and, HIS MIGHT! I realized the meanings of obedience, and, FAITHFULNESS! I began, immediately, though of course, imperfectly, to match my thoughts, actions, and, reactions TO my repentance, which, means a change of heart! I became serious about walking WITH HIM, FOR HIM, and, BY HIS WILL! I longed to HONOUR HIM with all I am capable of! I wanted to please HIM, because EVERYTHING HE Commands of me, is just, right, and, good FOR me! I KNOW HIS WAY IS THE WAY, and, nothing else matters, not at all!!!
I, honestly, do not conform in conduct to HIS WORD, for any other purpose than because HE has said it is right to do so! My efforts are aligned to what HE has instructed, throughout THE WORD! And then, I am understanding the soundness of the sensibility of doing so! I have a duty to serve HIM, for such IS HIS WILL! Who, and, what I was before, for the most part, has been washed away, like the earth beneath water! My aim is to become ONE with HIM, for HIGHER reasons, NOT because I have to prove anything! It simply, makes sense that I ALLOW the BETTER me, inside to SHINE of HIM, for this IS HIS CREATION, FOR, and, TO HIS GLORY, as well as, an example OF HIS mystical works in one's life!!!
So, I had to make some changes?! They were long overdue; I can SEE that now! So, I had to learn HIM, and, HIS WILL, in order for HIS presence to become more ONE with me?! I have NO doubt that what has been going on for the past 2 decades, IS DIVINE order being manifested! It is, and, has been worth it, in many ways!!!
HE says, "BE HOLY, because I AM HOLY!", and, I know I may never BE HOLY, but, with HIS WORD as my instruction, I can surely, TRY! I have spent the past few nights in 1 SAMUEL, through 2 KINGS, and, I am reminded of some facts, such as, when HE gives instruction, HE MEANS IT! Samuel, David, Elijah, Elisha, and, just a couple more, throughout these intense periods of HIS viable presence, took HIM to heart; the rest rebelled, defied, denied, and, perished in HIS disfavour! *GOD* works in such people to SHOW HIMSELF to those whom, even though HE IS EVIDENT, don't believe!!!
I took VOWS with *GOD*, so, I MUST HONOUR them, and, HIM! HE threw me to my knees, at a most crucial time, and, I have remained prostrate in mind, heart, and, spirit, since that time! I would rather end my time, having tried to perfect the spirit within, which, belongs to HIM, than to not care about it! I would rather learn all I can OF HIM, and, HIS WILL, while, striving to become a reflection of HIM, than to try to have it both ways! I understand WHY we can't have it both ways, and, I have been BLESSED BY HIS SHOWING me, exactly, what is wrong with the world, and, clinging to it's ways! HIS WAY IS THE WAY, and, once I got ON that narrow path, I did not look back, and, have no desire for anything but to, SEE the refined me, because the unrefined me, was lacking, and, incomplete!!!
REV. LWINSOR © 2012
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